I'm a whiny girl. I could die just because a big snake coming out to my bathroom a second she's come in.

I'm just fucking tired

I'm tired

I'm tired of being good girl


I'm tired of studying

Getting sick of it

I'm tired of being optimistic

Unfortunately, I'm tired of hoping

I'm getting tired for my thirst of knowledge

I'm tired of being ambitious


I'm tired always wanting what I can't get


I'm tired always smile in front of people

I'm tired of being nice

I'm tired of people's misperception about me

I'm tired of explaining for who I am

I'm tired being pushover

I'm tired socializing

I'm tired forgiving

I'm tired hating

I'm tired missing

I'm tired explaining



And I'm just tired for being so tired that I might lose the definition of tired 'cuz it's already been blur in my head.

Hmmm

Have you ever felt yesterday was so perfect, that, when tomorrow come you feel a slight of disappointed?

Have you ever felt all you've wanted available on yesterday, just yesterday.

Because yesterday you've been laugh, love, play, dance, and believe. And now you feel couldn't do those things anymore.

In yesterday everything goes complete

It seems God's bless disembark on yesterday, all the way down, and then stop... from tomorrow

Then you just losing faith, it goes everything has upside down

Getting tired, you don't wanna get the same routinity, face new problems, and then grow up

You just want to running from tomorrow

Keep running

And running from tomorrow

Blablabladiddyblahblah

it's easy to just curl up in bed after take a shower. naked, maybe. I don't
care.

but no, I have to study.

I got my final exam. and lately, I've been doing
everything wrong. misplaced. awry. I put conditioner before shampoo in my hair. I
didn't carry calculator on economy exam. I can't think straight. I don't even like
to think. right now I don't want to use my brain, I guess. but everybody knows that
is just impossible.

I get upset easily. I hung up quickly when my girl whining on the phone. it
could be explain later. when I feeling so much better.

I feel rumbling in my tummy. it's a sign I haven't go yummy. I haven't consume
anything yet since my late lunch on 3 pm. and it's already 10.30. I feel like
having troll in my stomch. graaawwl.

statistics, mass communication theory.. oh what the hell, I don't give a damn.
throw me my ragged duvet and I will sleep the second it touch me. "carpe diem"* just don't working to me.

or.. maybe, in fact it just succeed!

*Used as an admonition to seize the pleasures of the moment without concern for the future. is a phrase from a Latin poem by Horace (Horatius).

#babble on 24th from 365 days

acak-acakan

Di belakang kita terdengar sayup-sayup lagu murahan
Namun itu tidak menghentikan kita untuk saling berbincang
Setiap orang yang melihat akan tahu kita sedang naksir-naksiran
Namun yang mereka tidak tahu adalah
Ketika bersamamu, aku merasa perempuan paling beruntung sedunia

Mengingat saat kita duduk di pinggir kolam ikan
Kamu begitu diam
Dan begitu tidak bisa diam
Aku mengaduh melihat kamu tampak begitu tampan

Lama kita bertukar cerita
Kita berbincang dengan bahasa humor yang slapstick
Non-verbal yang menyentuh
Kita benar-benar tidak bisa mengobrol tanpa saling menatap mata satu sama lain, kan?

Kemudian di malam yang ungu secara kecelakaan melewatkan kesempatan untuk bertemu denganmu, lagi
Aku ber-Vanilla Twilight

Kepulan asap rokok yang aku hembuskan dari mulut
Samar-samar membentuk siluet wajahmu dari samping................

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Hey

Untuk kamu yang sedang bersembunyi dibalik pintu

Coba kesini jika ada waktu

Kapan mau duduk disampingku

kemudian menertawakan bersama kebodohan kita

Karena sekarang cuma ada kamu, aku, dan kamar itu berwarna magenta

Tempat dimana kemudaan berlangsung abadi

Dan kepura-puraan tidak pernah eksis

Kapan anting-anting itu dipasang lagi

Dan wajahmu berubah cerah ketika aku mencobanya

Backsound: Law Abiding CItizen

Nama "Cosmic Coincidence" sih emang judul blog saya pada jejaring sebelah, hanya saja kejadian yang baru saya alami ini entah bisa dibilang "kebetulan yang diatur oleh alam semesta" atau tidak. Ketika sedang berbincang dengan seorang teman di salah satu messanger, saya iseng memberikan quote yang menurut saya lumayan menyentuh. Yang dikasih cekikikan panjang sambil komentar seperti mengenali quote yang dimaksud. Perasaan saya agak kurang enak nih, langsung saja saya tembak, "kenal dari note lo?"
dan yep, jawabannya adalah... yep. Padahal berani sumpah saya nggak mau kelihatan bangga bahwa saya adalah stalker, dan yang lebih menyebalkannya lagi, itu benar-benar kebetulan kita berdua menyukai quote yang sama! Saya nggak pernah buka-buka notesnya.
Btw quote yang membuat heboh itu isinya sebagai berikut:


"In the end
these things matter most:
How well did you love?
How fully did you live?
How deeply did you let go?"
Siddhārtha Gautama